FAITH INSIDER

I Was Unable To Pray Or Feel God After Mom Died Until A Coworker Told Me About This Paint-By-Number Kit. 

If you've lost someone close to you and can't pray anymore, can't feel God's presence, or feel spiritually disconnected no matter how hard you try, read this short article right now before you do anything else.

Story by Sarah Mitchell 

Updated: January 21, 2026

10 minutes read

I KNEW GRIEF WOULD BE HARD, BUT I DIDN'T EXPECT THIS!

Four months after Mom's funeral, I couldn't walk past her bedroom.

 

Her Bible sat on the nightstand. Bookmark still in Psalms.

 

I wanted to pray. I wanted to feel God's comfort.

 

Instead, I felt nothing. Just hollow emptiness.

 

Mom was my spiritual anchor. She taught me to pray. Texted me Bible verses when life got hard.

 

Now she was gone. And I couldn't feel Him at all.

 

At night, I'd try to pray. "Dear God..." My throat closed up.

 

I tried her Bible. Made it three verses before the tears came.

 

I tried church. Left halfway through. Never went back.

 

The guilt was crushing. What kind of daughter loses her faith when her mother dies?

 

Four months in, I was barely functioning. Just going through the motions.

The Conversation That Saved My Faith...

Lisa asked me to coffee. She'd lost her dad two years earlier.

 

"You're not sleeping," she said.

 

I shook my head. "I can't pray anymore. The connection is gone."

 

She pulled up an article. "When you lose your spiritual foundation, your nervous system shuts down. The part of your brain that controls connection literally stops working."

 

"So I didn't lose my faith?"

 

"Your body is so overwhelmed, it can't feel anything except survival mode. Traditional prayer requires emotional capacity your nervous system doesn't have right now."

 

"What did you do?"

 

"Paint-by-number kits. WanderPainting makes them with Jesus designs."

 

I almost laughed. "Painting?"

 

"Those repetitive motions calm your nervous system when prayer can't. As Jesus's face took shape, I started feeling His presence again."

 

That night, I ordered one for $35.

When it arrived, I almost didn't open it. What if it failed too?

 

But I opened it.

 

Inside—canvas with Jesus outlined in numbered sections. Small paint pots matched to each number.

 

Three brushes.

 

No decisions. No pressure. Just follow the numbers.

What Happened When I Painted For Just 15 Minutes

I set it up on my table.

 

Timer for 15 minutes. Found section 1.

 

My hands shook. Tears fell.

 

But I kept painting. Dip, fill, repeat.

 

Around minute seven, something shifted.

 

The shaking stopped. My breathing slowed. The racing thoughts quieted.

 

I wasn't thinking about grief. Wasn't trying to pray.

 

Just following numbers.

For the first time in four months, I sat still for 15 minutes without the crushing weight.

 

I painted the next night. And the next.

 

Week one: Jesus's face started emerging. Something peaceful about watching Him appear.

 

Week two: Nightmares less frequent. Anxiety softening. My body finally calm enough to process grief without shutting down.

 

Week three: I painted His eyes—those gentle, knowing eyes—and felt it.

 

Warmth in my chest. Not being alone.

 

Not dramatic. Just this quiet, gentle presence. The kind Mom talked about.

 

I started crying. Not desperate sobs. Just tears. Release.

 

I hadn't lost God. My grief-flooded nervous system just needed safety before my heart could feel His presence again.

Then I Hung It In Mom's Bedroom

Five weeks to finish.

 

I hung it in Mom's bedroom, visible from the doorway.

 

Before, I couldn't walk past without panic.

 

Now I see Jesus's face—the face I painted, section by section—and feel calm.

 

Last week, I prayed for the first time since Mom died.

 

Not forced. Natural.

 

Lisa said it perfectly: "Your body needed safety before your heart could feel closeness again."

Here's what I wish someone told me:

 

You can't think your way back to God when your body is drowning in grief.

 

Those failed prayers weren't because your faith was weak.

 

Grief floods your nervous system with stress that literally shuts down your ability to feel connection.

 

That's not losing faith. That's trauma.

 

Everyone said "pray more" or "trust God" or "be strong."

 

But those approaches pressure your mind while ignoring your overwhelmed body.

Conclusion: It's A Lifeline

Setup takes 20 seconds. Open the box. Start painting.

 

How long for results?

 

I felt the first shift after 7 minutes on day one.

 

By week three, I felt God's presence for the first time since Mom died.

 

The emotional relief started immediately.

 

You can hang the finished painting anywhere you need comfort.

 

Mine's in Mom's bedroom. Some women paint three—one for each room where grief hits hardest.

 

This should be all you need to start calming your body so your heart can feel God again.

Choose The Jesus Design That Will Bring You Back To God

WanderPainting offers multiple Jesus portraits, each bringing comfort during grief.

 

Here are the most popular designs among Christians:

See Available Jesus Kits Before They're Gone →

 

Here's Everything You Get For Just $35

I couldn't believe everything included for such a small investment.

 

For $35, you get everything:

  • Complete Jesus portrait canvas - Pre-outlined with numbered sections, no guesswork
  • All paints perfectly matched - Every color you need, labeled to match the canvas
  • Three quality brushes - Different sizes for detailed and broad sections
  • Simple instructions - Step-by-step guide, even if you've never painted before
  • Peace returning one brushstroke at a time - The natural reconnection you've been desperate for

No hidden costs. No subscriptions. No ongoing purchases.

 

Just $35 for complete spiritual and emotional relief.

 

Compare that to:

  • One therapy session: $150-$200
  • Grief counseling (6 sessions): $900+
  • Pastoral counseling: $75-$100 per session
  • Antidepressants: $30-$200/month ongoing

WanderPainting costs less than a tank of gas and works with your body instead of against it.

I'm Not The Only One Who Found Their Way Back To God

Don't Wait Until The Disconnection Becomes Permanent

The longer your nervous system stays shut down, the harder reconnection becomes.

 

Neural pathways weaken. Avoidance becomes habit. The wall gets higher.

 

I almost waited too long.

 

If Lisa hadn't reached out exactly when she did, I don't know if I'd have found my way back.

 

You're reading this for a reason. This is your moment.

 

Don't let another month pass feeling abandoned.

 

Your mother wouldn't want that. Your father wouldn't want that.

 

They'd want you to feel God's comfort again.

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Your Faith Isn't Broken - Your Body Just Needs To Feel Safe First

For four months, I thought I'd lost my faith.

 

I was wrong.

 

My faith was still there. My love for God was still there.

 

My traumatized body just needed safety before my heart could feel His presence.

 

You haven't lost your ability to connect.

 

You haven't lost your faith.

 

You haven't failed your loved one.

 

Your grieving body needs calm first. Then connection follows.

 

WanderPainting gives you that.

 

No church anxiety. No guilt. No pressure to "feel" something before you're ready.

 

Just peace returning, one brushstroke at a time, until you feel His presence again.

 

If you're standing in your mother's doorway unable to breathe

If people keep telling you to pray when prayer feels impossible

If you want desperately to feel God but can't access Him

 

This is your answer.

 

The choice is yours:

 

Choice 1: Keep forcing connection through willpower. Keep failing. Keep feeling abandoned.

 

Choice 2: Give your nervous system what it needs. Order tonight. Start painting. Begin natural reconnection that's helped thousands.

 

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$35 for the kit.

 

Your spiritual reconnection? Priceless.

 

Don't wait another day.

 

Click above. See which designs remain. Choose the one that speaks to you.

 

Your loved one would want you to feel peace again.

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